
What would be an easy answer to this question:
Yes?
Or no?
There are often no easy answers for many things in life, especially those complicated ones.
And choosing an extremely different way of living isn't easy.
Social media usually paints perfect pictures - everything you dream of or your heart desires, but life isn't perfect or easy.
And everything comes with its cost.
We are not an exception.
We are 5 very different individuals - each with our own truth, reality, dreams, and desires.
We change over time too, and so do those things above - they evolve and become something new, maybe different or completely opposite.
So do our decisions - what was right in one moment doesn't necessarily mean it is in another.
That is ok.
Checking in on our own perspectives and understanding the ways that have been and what is now, makes us make new decisions with care and conscientiousness.
For me, that is the only right way - no matter what we choose and how we proceed with it, as long as we are aware of why we are doing it and knowing nothing is unchangeable.
So the answer is we don't know.
We all have different needs and wants, and we are imagining our reality differently.
It changes.
Life changes.
One being doubtful about the future.
One stepping into teenage years.
One being in the middle - not yet quite big and not small anymore either.
One being a kid with all that kids are.
And me:
Being a dreamer, visionary, and heart keeper - wanting everyone to live their best life ever but not fully being able to hold responsibility for every and each one of us.
How do we make the best out of it while also keeping each other's dreams alive?
At this moment, we are holding each other for what we have chosen in the past, and we are reminding each other of our whys and hows. Because as time passes by, we as humans have a tendency to forget our reasons, but it doesn't mean that they were not the right ones or they were not there at the given time.
We are just checking in from time to time, feeling what is alive and what's not anymore. Saying it loud - reflecting and giving the given emotions to be what they need to be and being curious about them is something that is very important in this process because our curiosity can lead us to the answer we might not yet know. And curiously asking what our heart is holding, we may be able to gently open up the door of whatever it is for us to discover on the other side.
So I ask and I listen and I see what it does with me. I feel and I let it be. I might even go deeper into myself and stay present with whatever I discover there. Sometimes it's not very pleasant. It might even be uncomfortable, maybe even painful, but in the end, it's OK that it is that way.
And then when I feel ready, I will share it with those who I share my life with and I will ask the same questions - those I ask myself, and I will try very, very hard and with my open heart to see their truth and their answers and their doubts and their challenges.
Sometimes we as mothers want to change what's uncomfortable for our loved ones, but in the end, in this process, it's not our task to find solutions. It's our task to hold a space, lovingly and caring without being pulled into our own triggers and fears and doubts, and by listening with an open heart we might echo to our loved ones whatever their truth is, whatever their heart wisdom is, and then together, we may make this dream from our pure imagination a reality.
It might not always be what we wanted it to be, but maybe, just maybe, it might be as close as we can get there.
So do we wanna keep going?
At this moment, yes - not all the time and not all of us at the same time. It changes and brings something new. But we don't know better, and we keep it as meaningful as it might be.
But it is hard - this or any other form of living comes with its own challenges.
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Edited to add:
I wrote this text some days ago after one of our “why?” Discussions. I also wrote it as a reaction from the things and events that were happening that week and in our recent time traveling.
I noticed changes and from time to another the tiredness or missing out hits us individually and then you hear people say many different things: some that may shake you, trigger you and make you uncomfortable.
I see it as essential part of the life and as that I try to let it be - unfold if you want it.
The day after I wrote that text, we drove 3 hours inland from Perth and came to our last pet sit for this time in Australia. I will do a full pet sit blog experience soon but for now let me just mention that a lot of peace has settled in last couple of days.
We got to process our individual things each and talk about some of them both as a couple and as a family. But most of what came along just happened by it self - living on 26 acres of land with animals and just us gave the slowness and comfort we needed to be reminded of our “why’s”. And they are still present and very much alive and there are more those that speak for this lifestyle than those contrary.
That is for me a huge reminder of how life shifts in periods and some things accelerate and make others grow bigger and how that all necessary doesn’t mean something is wrong or not good anymore, it just means that we as humans go through these phases - also when we travel full time and have all what comes along that way of living.
My point is: for now, I can rest in this slowness and reashurement that everything is as good as it gets.
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